As the electricity went out and candle was lighted and placed,I who has always been intrigued by its burning flame(this I do from childhood :D ),started playing with it ..irritating it,placing stick in its way,making shadow figures like I was kid again. :-) Fun it was! :)
After a while,as I sat in complete darkness and stared at this feeble flickering flame,my mind started flickering from past to present,present to future and so on...all sorts of thoughts clouded..passing hurriedly through my mind one by one.In these flashbacks of past,reality of present and hopes for future,a mix bag of emotions got opened and I was lost in it..
As I was chuckling merrily remembering the good old moments with family and friends,tide turned to bitterness that failures in past have brought mixed with frustration of present forcing the expression to go grim..
Whenever I remember past,all the failures seem to sound okay,in a way encouraging me that I had come out all fine from those and I can sail through present tough conditions too.On the other hand,all the good things though they bring back joy feeling but ending it with a weak smile,all that great time is lost now and I didn't give its due importance at that moment and how I am going to miss those moments,those people.Big irony,isn't it!!
Thinking of present,brings dissatisfaction with myself,the trying to prove to the world,to myself,striving hard for it.Sometimes,there is contentment in some aspects of life but there is always something missing which keeps on crawling in mind keeping us going ahead.
Future is something which is so full of uncertainty,what I would be doing 5 years from now..and there are always some told-untold dreams which sweep across which I could actually imagine happening right here ,right now.
And suddenly,sharp burning tinge brought me back in reality from the thoughts of who I was,who I am,and who I am going to be..which threw me in trance state!!There I was playing with the flickering flame lost in my tiny world of memories,thoughts and dreams..
After a while,as I sat in complete darkness and stared at this feeble flickering flame,my mind started flickering from past to present,present to future and so on...all sorts of thoughts clouded..passing hurriedly through my mind one by one.In these flashbacks of past,reality of present and hopes for future,a mix bag of emotions got opened and I was lost in it..
As I was chuckling merrily remembering the good old moments with family and friends,tide turned to bitterness that failures in past have brought mixed with frustration of present forcing the expression to go grim..
Whenever I remember past,all the failures seem to sound okay,in a way encouraging me that I had come out all fine from those and I can sail through present tough conditions too.On the other hand,all the good things though they bring back joy feeling but ending it with a weak smile,all that great time is lost now and I didn't give its due importance at that moment and how I am going to miss those moments,those people.Big irony,isn't it!!
Thinking of present,brings dissatisfaction with myself,the trying to prove to the world,to myself,striving hard for it.Sometimes,there is contentment in some aspects of life but there is always something missing which keeps on crawling in mind keeping us going ahead.
Future is something which is so full of uncertainty,what I would be doing 5 years from now..and there are always some told-untold dreams which sweep across which I could actually imagine happening right here ,right now.
And suddenly,sharp burning tinge brought me back in reality from the thoughts of who I was,who I am,and who I am going to be..which threw me in trance state!!There I was playing with the flickering flame lost in my tiny world of memories,thoughts and dreams..
2 comments:
It got finished before I even got started. Too soon for the enjoyment to stop! Marvelous! Marvelous!
Thankyou for all the encouragement!
I was trying my hand in being pictorially descriptive,I hope I would fare better in subsequent posts of similar tone. :)
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